Listening to: Cry for a Shadow by The Beatles
Watching: The Nanny
It's the last day of my winter break and it's almost midnight. Time to get piled up with work...again. 2012 may have started off quiet nicely but will not be remembered as a good year. Right now my grades suck. I don't know if I'll be able to get them back up again. I'm just not that confident with school anymore as I was the last school year. What's worst is that it's my senior year! I'm not going to think about the past anymore but it's hard when you feel like you're going to have a horrible future.
Here's to the end of the Happy New Year! This is the point where I start having low expectations in my life for the next two years...inshaAllah (God willing (hopefully)) just for two years and not more than that. All I want this year is to regain my Muslim spiritual side back (not that I had one before) and to get into a normal college like FIU so I can transfer to a much better college in California later when I have money and inshaAllah better grades. If that happens, and I'll be extremely grateful if it will, then maybe I would also want Allah (God) to give me the motivation and strength to start working out again. It would make me more happy and my parents happier who have suddenly been so obsessed with my body lately. That's all I want. No, I don't want an Ipod or a new phone or even a car. Oh Allah...speaking of car I also have to get more confident with driving a car. I hate driving! My mom doesn't even let me practice with her and I hate practicing with my dad because he screams at every little mistake I make!
So 2013, you're the first year I'm making a New Years resolution. I hate saying that word. Resolution. I think the word demotivates people. Anyway by the end of 2013, I must:
1) Be a better Muslim
2) Be in a decent college
3) Be a confident driver
And if I'm lucky:
4) Be in Shape
So much work to do oh Allah....